Did I know?
Before my mother unionized me with Brea, saying we were different than the other girls.
I didn't
I don't understand
Alexis was there too
Were we not three?
If we had to be two
Fifth grade knowing there was differnce
Sixth grade new world of middle school and people
Sventh grade understanding bonds didn't have the same amoutn of time to form or repair
Eigth grade feeling stuck in a small world, but high school to follow next
Eighth grade, transferring within two days to a new school on a whim
Eigth grade - I created the narrative
No one knew me
No one knew I was realyl quiet, little friends, crushes never relationships
Instead, Raven was
Goofy
Confident
Outgoing
Talkative
Flirting
Center of attention
Take care for a nice outfit
Doing the work to ensure I'd be called smart
Walk straight, upright
Big fish, small pond
College
Bigger pond, bigger fishes
Unique ones
Large possibilities of people
Who did Ravey want to be?
Hard working, afford lifestyle : worked 3 jobs at a time, always
+ Interesting b/c thats how my mo. would avoid living her life ... (unpack)
Smart : remained articulate and talkative, avoided classes i knew were too hard, didnt share gpa
travlere " maintained gpa to ensure i could go on as many school trips as possible
+ regret not studying abroad, ignoring the present in attempt to safe guard the future
self care: inspired by jen doing her nails weekly in a nonchalant desired lifestyle way + face masks, hair care, outfits .. genuine care with self and image (which I now understand as so valuable as its the lasting piece people can grasp)
NOV 1 6:33p lol
Raven Waters. Raven Caarmella Waters.
I am in great hands with my ancestors.
I am supported, held, loved adn respected on this life path.
I know this to be true.
Thank you.
You are remarkable to me
I am enchanted with you.. your mind.. your life..
My love
Forevermore
Fucking cool as fuck
Anyway
Seeing what I thought was a Blues woman drowning by white hands
She doesn't seem to be in Waters
but my heart jumps, giggles and smiles at it belonging to Toni Morrison's book
all faith, no fear
I love you.